"As far as you can is still a change from where you were before," he says quietly, even if he knows that's not what he'd like to hear himself, "I've been told over and over again that I need to be patient with myself, that change like this is a process, but it gets frustrating still, regardless."

He keeps feeling like he's not doing enough, or that he's lagging behind because he's told to focus on certain things at a time, but it doesn't make the feeling of not being enough or putting enough effort in go away.