[It isn't the violent nature of her death that gets him so much as the idea that sheltering him wasn't his choice.]

Regardless of how she died, it should be his call.

But he didn't get to make that decision, it was taken from him. And I could ask him if he has regrets about that, or if he would have chosen differently if he could have, but I don't think I'll ever know.

Because he has someone else who makes that choice for him, and tells him it was for the best every single time and he believes it.

Do you understand how hard it is to unlearn that?