"I figured you did care, but...it hurt, that you could just let it sit there, for months," he admits quietly, "A-and it's hard, talking about it, any of this, because I don't want to hurt you either, bringing up your mistakes. I threw it all in your face when you got here...I didn't want to do that again." He knows he'd been angry, had swallowed it because it was too much, and left it at that.

He does look Cain in the eyes though, can understand that there are some things that make it so hard to say what you want, because fear is so much more powerful than want or need sometimes. He takes in a a breath, stuttered as it was with his tears, "I do have one question though...Before we say anything else, I- I couldn't stop thinking about it." Because it had meant so much to him, but when he'd found out what was really happening, it had just poisoned all of it, even if he still hoped sometimes that maybe that part had been real.

"I don't know if you even remember...but after we used the jump drive that first time, you told me you-" He closes his eyes, trying to gain some composure, lips pressed tightly together, "T-that you'd never wanted anyone more, and...I just need to know. Did you actually mean it when you said it then?" He doesn't ask him to be honest, because he believes him when he says that he won't lie to him again, but it's been eating a hole in him since that day on the observation deck. "I- I won't be upset if you didn't...I just want to stop questioning whether you did or not."