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[inthebiblicalsense]

[In a very serious, business tone, Abel's answering machine sounds after any attempted calls that aren't responded to right away.]

You've reached Abel. I am not available at the moment, but I'll get back to you as soon as I can. If this is urgent, leave the line open.

And if this is Fitz I hope you're having a good day.

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[reargunner]

Both.

[The word comes out easily enough with the last tension leaving as he drops his shoulders and tips his head back a little.]

The last month has been a fucking shitshow, Ethan. If this ended up with us fighting too I was gonna fucking snap.

[inthebiblicalsense]

[It hasn't been a good time, he knows that. He's still not himself either and trying to come up with strategies, worried he's going to make some other mistake because he can't find a way out that doesn't end in failure.]

Well, I don't want to fight you. I love you, and I'm rather tired myself. But if you have things to say, I want you to say them. If not to me then to someone.

[reargunner]

I don't know, I...

[Shrug.]

I don't wanna dump everything on somebody until I have it sorted out in my head a bit better.

[inthebiblicalsense]

I understand you don't see therapy as an option on board because of your options, but maybe you could write it down? That might help your sorting.

I was keeping a journal for a long while before you came on board. I wrote out one sided conversations because it did help, at least a little.

I could ask the Admiral for a notebook only you can read? Fitz got me one for christmas... you could give that a try?

[reargunner]

[He scrunches his nose a little, unsure if he can entirely trust that.]

Only I can read it?

[At least he isn't dismissing the idea outright?]

[inthebiblicalsense]

I can show you mine, if you'd like? [He could even demonstrate writing a line if Alexei didn't trust it so he could prove that it worked.]

It makes me feel better, knowing that it's for my eyes only.

[reargunner]

[He frowns, still unsure, but he doesn't need a demonstration to trust that what Ethan is telling him is the truth.]

Okay. I mean— I'll try it. It's not like it can hurt anything.