[That pointed calm feels strange, and perhaps it's just a departure from how things used to be but it's making him frustrated in a way he knows it shouldn't.
He's not going to get worked up, he's calm, this is fine.]
When we talked about this last time, I said let me know if things changed, and you did...but- [He frowns, staring into his lap.]
I was very clear that I didn't say anything to Norton until I talked to you about it, because It felt disrespectful. And I know I fucked all of that up, but we've been through this, I acknowledged my mistakes, I apologized for them and I've been trying to fix what I broke.
So when you start this conversation and...essentially do the same thing, but also don't even let me know before Florian does, that feels...deliberate, intentional and m-maybe it's because of how I've felt in the past, like I'm always the last to know, but...I don't like that. It feels isolating, or like I'm an after thought.
And I understand that probably wasn't your intention, but that's how it feels all the same.
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Date: 2025-02-28 01:55 pm (UTC)He's not going to get worked up, he's calm, this is fine.]
When we talked about this last time, I said let me know if things changed, and you did...but- [He frowns, staring into his lap.]
I was very clear that I didn't say anything to Norton until I talked to you about it, because It felt disrespectful. And I know I fucked all of that up, but we've been through this, I acknowledged my mistakes, I apologized for them and I've been trying to fix what I broke.
So when you start this conversation and...essentially do the same thing, but also don't even let me know before Florian does, that feels...deliberate, intentional and m-maybe it's because of how I've felt in the past, like I'm always the last to know, but...I don't like that. It feels isolating, or like I'm an after thought.
And I understand that probably wasn't your intention, but that's how it feels all the same.