In the most biblical sense

I understand you don't see therapy as an option on board because of your options, but maybe you could write it down? That might help your sorting.

I was keeping a journal for a long while before you came on board. I wrote out one sided conversations because it did help, at least a little.

I could ask the Admiral for a notebook only you can read? Fitz got me one for christmas... you could give that a try?