I already fucking told him I'm not one of his army buddies.
[They had that conversation already, and Alexei managing to verbalise why he kept getting so frustrated seemed to help some, but it doesn't take away that unwanted connection forcing them both to be part of a system they aren't interested in participating in.]
... I don't want anything to do with being seen like that by anyone. [His brow furrows again.] I know—... we have similarities. But that isn't special. So do me and Arthur, or me and John. That isn't...
[Huff. He pinches the bridge of his nose then rubs his face quickly.]
I hate... I hate not having control over it. It's just—... another thing that's been pulled out of my hands.
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Date: 2025-07-04 04:23 pm (UTC)[They had that conversation already, and Alexei managing to verbalise why he kept getting so frustrated seemed to help some, but it doesn't take away that unwanted connection forcing them both to be part of a system they aren't interested in participating in.]
... I don't want anything to do with being seen like that by anyone. [His brow furrows again.] I know—... we have similarities. But that isn't special. So do me and Arthur, or me and John. That isn't...
[Huff. He pinches the bridge of his nose then rubs his face quickly.]
I hate... I hate not having control over it. It's just—... another thing that's been pulled out of my hands.