"He did. A long time ago, actually. Back in port, he'd warned me to be careful about who I slept with, since I'd agreed it would be difficult to start something and then all of a sudden stop." He's not interested in discussing his very limited sex life on board, which is honestly driving him a little crazy along with the rest of everything, but he gets why she brings it up. "I've been trying to be careful about that with inmates, I think too careful, which is what offended Silver in the first place, but I understand."
He sighs, starting to walk just so he can move away from every last thing he said, as if that will help, but he shouldn't hold back on this. Regardless of how embarrassing or upset he was about the whole thing, what good was asking for advice if you couldn't be honest?
"It's probably obvious to everyone, but I didn't have friends before I came here. At least, not like this. I knew people, but...knowing Fitz was like taking the exact opposite of everything I'm familiar with and making it safe. I'm struggling with the loss of that." And everyone keeps telling him that it isn't about him, it's about Fitz, but what kind of help will he be if he can't move on from this? Fitz needed time, he'd try and give it to him, but in the mean time the only thing he had left to work on was himself.
"So...how did you get through that? Because I can't really see out of it right now."
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Date: 2024-08-09 03:28 pm (UTC)He sighs, starting to walk just so he can move away from every last thing he said, as if that will help, but he shouldn't hold back on this. Regardless of how embarrassing or upset he was about the whole thing, what good was asking for advice if you couldn't be honest?
"It's probably obvious to everyone, but I didn't have friends before I came here. At least, not like this. I knew people, but...knowing Fitz was like taking the exact opposite of everything I'm familiar with and making it safe. I'm struggling with the loss of that." And everyone keeps telling him that it isn't about him, it's about Fitz, but what kind of help will he be if he can't move on from this? Fitz needed time, he'd try and give it to him, but in the mean time the only thing he had left to work on was himself.
"So...how did you get through that? Because I can't really see out of it right now."