[It's a closed community; he didn't seek her out. They were both just using the same facility at the same time. A weird late night time to specifically avoid all other people and it didn't quite work out that way.]
That isn't the only thing I called her. But when I talked to her, I tried to hear her out, just.... to know. I wanted to know. I always want to understand why things with people are the way they are, in the end. Not understanding why someone... anyway. It's like an unscratchable itch in my brain. If Cain said "you were wearing a blue shirt when we met and that made me think of my CO so I can't look at you or hear you ever, leave me alone," I'd be like... very well. Have a nice life. Trauma response. I get it. But it's just nothing. "I can't stand you because of stuff you did after I already decided I couldn't stand you". Okay; that doesn't actually make logical sense. So. Justine. I don't want her to come within ten feet of Will still, but she knows why and I understand what she was doing, even if I don't agree with it. So it's kind of... over. I can file it away. I don't know if that makes sense to you, but that's what my problem is.
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Date: 2024-12-18 02:39 pm (UTC)That isn't the only thing I called her. But when I talked to her, I tried to hear her out, just.... to know. I wanted to know. I always want to understand why things with people are the way they are, in the end. Not understanding why someone... anyway. It's like an unscratchable itch in my brain. If Cain said "you were wearing a blue shirt when we met and that made me think of my CO so I can't look at you or hear you ever, leave me alone," I'd be like... very well. Have a nice life. Trauma response. I get it. But it's just nothing. "I can't stand you because of stuff you did after I already decided I couldn't stand you". Okay; that doesn't actually make logical sense. So. Justine. I don't want her to come within ten feet of Will still, but she knows why and I understand what she was doing, even if I don't agree with it. So it's kind of... over. I can file it away. I don't know if that makes sense to you, but that's what my problem is.