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[In a very serious, business tone, Abel's answering machine sounds after any attempted calls that aren't responded to right away.]

You've reached Abel. I am not available at the moment, but I'll get back to you as soon as I can. If this is urgent, leave the line open.

And if this is Fitz I hope you're having a good day.

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I can do somewhere else.

And I'm not rushing into it or anything.

I'm really not pissed.

I mean this in the nicest way I can in your regards.

I literally give no fucks about your man and him being a dick.

He's not even particularly good at it.

But I think he would benefit from some violence.

Help him with a familiar purpose.

And to feel alive.

[All of this clearly comes from some ~~projection~~ personal experience.]

[He stares down at the message, chewing his lip before responding.]

I can't speak for him and maybe that WILL help, but he's got to be able to ask for it himself.

[And fingers crossed he doesn't try to fight Alexei where he can see it because as much as he has no idea what might happen, he'd rather not try and fight Sweeney himself. Given the compulsion though, it might not give him a choice.]

Yeah

Pretty sure you're aware he's not going to do that.

He doesn't strike me as the 'use your words' type.

[He would know.]

[That strikes a bit of a sore spot and he has to set the phone down a minute to pick his words carefully.]

Maybe he won't, but he deserves time to process and make his own decisions. He's not just some angry, caged animal.

[No matter if that's how he might feel or come off at first glance.]

He knows how to use his words, he's just picky about who deserves to hear them.

Well, pretty sure both of us know that isn't going to be me.

And like I said, I'm not talking about tracking him down this very moment.

He didn't offend me.

I would have done worse.

Have done worse.

But I'm also not the prick that puts the call out in the first place and then is a cunt to literally everyone trying to help him.

So

I'm not defending that behavior, it's a little painful to watch, honestly. [Sometimes the way Alexei responds or interprets things, he just doesn't follow.]

But I'm doing what I can. I'll think about your suggestion, just don't think it's the right time to bring it up.

I think there's a bit of a misunderstanding.

I'm asking your opinion because I respect you.

I'm not asking for your permission.

Cunt like him doesn't talk bout putting holes in walls and being in prison without being well-versed in 'talk shit, get hit'.

And Leprechaun keep receipts.

If you have an issue with that, you can take it up with Mags.

I don't mind.

I would hope it wouldn't escalate to needing to involve her.

[And he can't even bring it up with Alexei because looking at this whole conversation would just piss him off.]

And I wasn't taking it as asking permission. It was a warning and I appreciate you respecting me enough to give me the heads up. But what you said, earlier? I think you're right. He might need that but I'm not the person to talk to him about it.

He doesn't think I understand, and maybe he's right, I don't. My concern is if he will be okay. Its part of why I'm here in the first place. He can take a hit, but he's just as human as I am.

Not every lesson has to be learned through pain.

[There's a brief pause.]

What do you think this place *is*?

[If it wasn't Sweeney, if he didn't have everything else going on, if Alexei hadn't been dragged here from some timeline he himself had probably also died in, he might not be honest.

But Sweeney values honesty, is an honest creature by nature. He doesn't want to lie to him.]

The Barge is a poorly conceived hostel, paved with good intentions without the actual understanding of how any of this is perceived by the people who are brought here.

It's both entirely in our control and completely out of it how anyone accepts and reacts to what happens here, but I refuse to participate in it if I can't at least attempt to do what I was asked to do when the Admiral approached me.

I have that choice, and no one has the ability to take that away from any of us for longer than a breach at a time.

No

This place is pain.

I've never known anyone, inmate or warden, to make it through clean without it.

It's what brings growth, right?

Wheat from the chaff and all that.

And while I appreciate your opinion on the matter, life and how we all view it is a very personal matter. Individual interpretation.

I'm not saying there isn't pain, because that would be a lie, but that isn't all it is, and it isn't all the Barge gives people and it isn't the only way we grow.

Alright

I never said that's all it is.

But I respect your opinion.

That's what the 'no' seemed to imply, but obviously that isn't what you meant. Hard to get tone and intention through text.

[Sweeney's not ready to argue fine print. It's not the point of this contact.]

It's fine.

Appreciate you giving your opinion.

[That's pretty much all he has on his end. He got what answer he needed.]

Aside from warning me you might want to punch my boyfriend in the face, is there anything else you wanted?

No

[That was the impetus for reaching out. It seems like they've both said their piece on the topic, so he's content to leave it there.]

Well I hope you have a more pleasant rest of your day, Sweeney. I'll talk to you later.

[Dealing with less assholes at least.]

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