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Abel (Ethan Lamaire) ([personal profile] inthebiblicalsense) wrote2024-09-23 01:30 am
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[In a very serious, business tone, Abel's answering machine sounds after any attempted calls that aren't responded to right away.]

You've reached Abel. I am not available at the moment, but I'll get back to you as soon as I can. If this is urgent, leave the line open.

And if this is Fitz I hope you're having a good day.
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[personal profile] reargunner 2025-07-02 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
[Another smile, with another gentler nudge as he spots that look on Ethan's face. As if he knows what he's thinking.]

Yeah.

[It does sound good. Simple. Just... having a life, with nothing too complicated getting in the way.]

You're being cute again.
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[personal profile] reargunner 2025-07-02 12:47 am (UTC)(link)
Hmm.

[Alexei shifts and leans in, lightly catching Ethan's jaw with his thumb and curled forefinger. He hesitates half an inch from kissing him, just for a moment, then closes that small distance to press their lips together softly and sweetly.

Then he sits back with a satisfied little smile and leans his weight on one elbow.
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Love you, too.
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[personal profile] reargunner 2025-07-03 04:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[Okay, he did kind of bring that on himself. He shakes his head a little, amused.]

You'll be in the way of me seeing anything and I won't be able to watch you making cute faces when you think of things to add. You can sit on my lap when we're done.

[One of them needs to be practical.]
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[personal profile] reargunner 2025-07-04 03:32 am (UTC)(link)
Mm, maybe.

[Alexei is more interested in what he came here for, and more than he thought he might be now that he actually has something to be interested about. If he can actually give a damn about the cabin maybe living in it wouldn't feel like such a chore.

He turns his attention back to the tablet and hums.
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Loft isn't ideal but I like the whole... levels thing. Can we do that?
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[personal profile] reargunner 2025-07-04 01:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[The look he gets goes entirely unnoticed.

He's far more invested in what Ethan starts putting to paper, so to speak, even as he wonders just how much he can get away with in terms of comfort given his own status. He knows what he can't have, but for what he can..? Unsure.
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Steps sounds good. Can see myself falling down a spiral staircase. [And he really isn't that fancy.

Then he pauses, huffing out a little breath through his nose.
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This is gonna be something I have to put through Jacob, isn't it...
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[personal profile] reargunner 2025-07-04 02:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Fuckin' imagine. 'Ethan, help, I'm stuck in the stairs.

[He lightly mocks his own voice and then sobers a little. Putting the request through Jacob is a frustrating idea, not because he dislikes him but because the idea of having to acknowledge their situation outside of the one time he decided to place his boundaries leaves a bad taste in his mouth.

And that isn't Jacob's fault. None of it is. It doesn't make it less aggravating though.
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Nah, don't worry about that. [He rests his head against his hand.] Just kinda... gives it a sour note, I guess.
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[personal profile] reargunner 2025-07-04 03:19 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not worrying, I don't—

[He's about to say he doesn't care and stops himself, pushing a hand through his hair instead before returning that nudge with a light one of his own.]

It's made things weird. I can't get used to it, Ethan. I've been trying, you know, to not be pissed at him about it 'cause it isn't as if he asked for it either.

[But it's been weird, ever since Jacob graduated, and he keeps bumping into walls trying to get around it. Alexei lets out a noise, frustrated.]

There's only so far both of us agreeing to just fucking ignore it can go.
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[personal profile] reargunner 2025-07-04 03:43 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't need Jacob to protect me. [Grumbled, annoyed, because he knows Jacob is like that but the pairing adds the sense of it being an obligation, a baked-in ulterior motive, even though that isn't the case.]

I just keep having to keep my mouth shut, 'cause if I say what I actually want to I'll only hurt his feelings and there's no fucking point. It won't change anything.

[He frowns down at the table.]

Just don't know what the Admiral was even thinking, forcing it onto either of us.
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[personal profile] reargunner 2025-07-04 04:03 pm (UTC)(link)
What work?

[He frowns a bit, not shifting from the contact but turning his head to look over at the other man.]

And— no, I don't, but that's different.
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[personal profile] reargunner 2025-07-04 04:23 pm (UTC)(link)
I already fucking told him I'm not one of his army buddies.

[They had that conversation already, and Alexei managing to verbalise why he kept getting so frustrated seemed to help some, but it doesn't take away that unwanted connection forcing them both to be part of a system they aren't interested in participating in.]

... I don't want anything to do with being seen like that by anyone. [His brow furrows again.] I know—... we have similarities. But that isn't special. So do me and Arthur, or me and John. That isn't...

[Huff. He pinches the bridge of his nose then rubs his face quickly.]

I hate... I hate not having control over it. It's just—... another thing that's been pulled out of my hands.
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[personal profile] reargunner 2025-07-04 04:46 pm (UTC)(link)
I keep trying to do that. I do. I guess... it's why I came around to this.

[A small gesture at the tablet and the half-done sketches. He's quiet for a few moments.]

I can choose who I spend time with. Who my friends are. What I do with my day and when I do it. [There's an odd, forced evenness about his voice.] But it doesn't take the background noise away. That this place is just a prison, and I'm trapped here.

[He closes his eyes, takes a breath in and lets it out. His fingernails slowly disengage from where they'd dug into his palms.]

... Sorry. [Sigh.] I know you want to fix it, and I know you can't, and I know that's hard. I just can't pretend to be okay all the time.
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[personal profile] reargunner 2025-07-06 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[He studies Ethan for a few quiet moments, then smiles softly and leans over to rest his head against the other man's shoulder. He nudges his head up gently into the curve of Ethan's neck.]

I know I don't have to do it all by myself.

[Alexei has been shown that, and he does understand, even if there are some things he still keeps under wraps.]

But— I'd like to be able to do more of it with you.