"I suppose that would be rather frustrating, all those months..." He'd not allowed to do much more than look for now, though the more stressed he got, the more tempting things got, and now, he supposed he could let the lead go if he really wanted. The thought still made him kind of uncomfortable, but he hoped that if he really wasn't into it, he'd be able to tell himself no when a chance came up.
"Do you know who Fitz's previous warden was, by the way? He mentioned it when I gave him his file, and I didn't even realize he'd had one before. It...hadn't come up in conversation." Since he'd been trying very hard to leave that dynamic out of their friendship, but here they were with it wedged in the middle.
"I...think I understand that a little. This entire time I've kind of just caught myself thinking about going and talking with Fitz, or listening to something with him, and that's not an option right now. I'm not sure it will be any more, at least not like it used to." And there is that growing fear that he's not going to find something like that with anyone else for a very long time, because how could you replace that? It was impossible.
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Date: 2024-08-10 05:46 am (UTC)"Do you know who Fitz's previous warden was, by the way? He mentioned it when I gave him his file, and I didn't even realize he'd had one before. It...hadn't come up in conversation." Since he'd been trying very hard to leave that dynamic out of their friendship, but here they were with it wedged in the middle.
"I...think I understand that a little. This entire time I've kind of just caught myself thinking about going and talking with Fitz, or listening to something with him, and that's not an option right now. I'm not sure it will be any more, at least not like it used to." And there is that growing fear that he's not going to find something like that with anyone else for a very long time, because how could you replace that? It was impossible.