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[inthebiblicalsense]

[In a very serious, business tone, Abel's answering machine sounds after any attempted calls that aren't responded to right away.]

You've reached Abel. I am not available at the moment, but I'll get back to you as soon as I can. If this is urgent, leave the line open.

And if this is Fitz I hope you're having a good day.

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Re: Private

[talesuntold]

"I thought I was careful. We had chemistry when I was his temp, and I told Tim, my boyfriend at the time, that I didn't know whether I wanted the Admiral to pair us so I could take care of him or leave us unpaired so I could sleep with him. Waited multiple pairing days after our assignment ended before falling into bed with him, because he deserved a warden and he was one of those people I was immediately ready to fight for. I wanted to punch his last warden after a single conversation with Red."

Frankly she'd like to lodge a complaint that the version who showed up later had no memory of screwing over her inmate, so she just had to swallow her anger some more instead of finally getting to vent a little of it.

"We finally got paired a couple months after we started having sex, and we both still miss what we had before, almost two years later. I wonder semi-regularly if he wishes I weren't his warden. But I'm too stubborn and care too much to send him back to the temp rotation even if the Admiral were willing to unpair us. He spent two years in an endless rotation. He's not spending more there if I can help it."

She closes her eyes for a second, bracing against the memory. "Our first month paired was absolutely awful, but not through... either of our faults. The timing could not have been worse, trying to figure out how to support each other as we both fell apart, in the immediate aftermath of losing the way we used to."

Re: Private

[inthebiblicalsense]

"I suppose that would be rather frustrating, all those months..." He'd not allowed to do much more than look for now, though the more stressed he got, the more tempting things got, and now, he supposed he could let the lead go if he really wanted. The thought still made him kind of uncomfortable, but he hoped that if he really wasn't into it, he'd be able to tell himself no when a chance came up.

"Do you know who Fitz's previous warden was, by the way? He mentioned it when I gave him his file, and I didn't even realize he'd had one before. It...hadn't come up in conversation." Since he'd been trying very hard to leave that dynamic out of their friendship, but here they were with it wedged in the middle.

"I...think I understand that a little. This entire time I've kind of just caught myself thinking about going and talking with Fitz, or listening to something with him, and that's not an option right now. I'm not sure it will be any more, at least not like it used to." And there is that growing fear that he's not going to find something like that with anyone else for a very long time, because how could you replace that? It was impossible.

Re: Private

[talesuntold]

"Losing that is the worst feeling. I'm hoping you get it back, even if it might not be exactly the same." She'll elaborate on that atrocious month if he's interested. But for now, she'll answer the question.

"And his last warden was Shen Wei. He was demoted just after I arrived, so I never saw what they were like together. I hadn't even met either of them when they were still paired. You can touch base with Shen Wei, but I don't know that he'll have anything useful to say."

She purses her lips. "Most permanent pairings are good, but every once in awhile I question one. Red's previous warden was a mess, and he twisted Red up because he wasn't in any state to support someone here. I'm fond of Shen Wei; he was my brother in the last breach, and I've been fretting about him from a distance since Tim left. ...One of my boyfriends on the Barge was Shen Wei's inmate, and then the other was his warden. But Shen Wei and Fitz were probably like oil and water. I think your chances of getting through to him eventually are much higher."

Re: Private

[inthebiblicalsense]

"We'll see what happens, but I'm not holding my breath. He barely wants to look at me at the moment, which I suppose is fair considering everything else." Or rather, considering it's Fitz and his opinion on the whole system. Perhaps he'll take some pity on him, but currently he isn't sure how to move forward with that, so gathering information in the mean time, he can do.

"I think it would be good to at least talk to him, see what he did that wasn't working." But, it makes him wonder if this choice of both of them was a good idea at all. "Fitz asked me to request it be terminated. I think he already knew what my answer would be, but it makes me feel like it isn't the right choice either, but I'm not going to give up on it, especially not this early." Even if it hurt, Fitz was worth it anyways.

He tilts his head back, looking far up into the canopy, seeing the sky between the blanket of trees and takes in another deep breath, "Anything in particular you think worked well in the beginning with a rough start?"